First let me apologize for not finishing up my fitness series,
but life got in the way. I promise I will complete the series…
Okay now that I got that
out, I want to talk about feeling a loss before it occurs. Sometimes, we create this ideal with a person
or a form of life. It’s what we know, what we have created, and what we expect
from a certain person. I know the person
I am, I will turn 360 degrees to ensure that the person I care about never
doubts it. You can call it weak, but I
call it love. It’s the affirmation that you will be there when you need them.
The test of time is realizing and understanding that they may not be there when
you need them. This can be intentional or
unintentional. The problem is, the more
unstable or let’s say Non-foundation a relationship is, the more you will
interpret small things and make them into a bigger problem. At this point I would say communication is
key. I know this…You know this…But when
that person asks you what is wrong, you don’t want to seem dramatic and often
choose to say nothing. Why is it so damn
hard to just say, why are you acting differently? I think it boils down to your own judgment. What I mean by this is are they really acting
differently or are you more insecure thereby reading into the small details you
never noticed before. This is me. I tend to read and overthink. I would say I am a calm woman, have learned
never to jump to conclusions, and go with the flow. But at what point when your I love you’s are coming more from you and not
from them, do you start to read the signs.
I think a very bad part of human nature is our conscience. No one ever intends in hurting someone else
nor would we want to. It is just
life. Different ordeals require
different support systems and maybe at some point your time as a support system
runs out. I think when you notice this trend you have to see it for what it
is. I strongly believe that if someone
wants to be a part of your life, they will damn well ensure you are in it. They will do everything in their power to
ensure you are getting what you need to feel wanted. I’ve never asked for much is a relationship
and I think this is a bad thing. I think
you should ask for the world. Why allow
an in limbo relationship? Do you hope the best for something that may never
come out, or is it the whole ideal that you could possibly be that small margin
that is lucky and pulls threw.
The positive to pull away from this is never change who you
are or your expectations. There is no
need to create a dramatic playing field as well. Simply pull back. If the other person uses this to their
advantage and does not respond, well you know the intentions and the loss will
not be as hard to bear. Sometimes with
practice we learn how something will feel, and what it takes to put that
feeling away. Maybe that is what you
needed all along to see what was in front of you. Your road is determined and
people are placed as road blocks to show you how to find home. Trust
you will not be led astray.
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