A Miracle in the Mirror
I used to tell people I was thankful for him—because there was so much I proved to myself through that love.
It wasn’t trauma-bonding.
It wasn’t chaos.
It was a choice.
It was healthy.
And I truly loved his soul.
So now that it’s over, you’d expect devastation. But I’m not broken. I’m not even angry.
I’m sad, sure—but there’s this strange thrill underneath it. A quiet excitement.
It doesn’t make sense unless you realize this one thing:
Maybe he wasn’t the love of my life.
Maybe he was the mirror that helped me finally see every part of me!
Maybe learning to love him was truly learning to love myself.
Because I gave that relationship everything—10,000% of me.
And when it ended, I didn’t walk away empty. I walked away whole.
For the first time in my adult life, I had a healthy relationship… and a healthy ending.
And somehow, I emerged the healthiest I’ve been in 30 years—mentally, physically, emotionally.
God used him.
Even if he doesn’t believe in God—that’s not my battle to fight.
God still moved through him.
He showed me parts of myself I had buried.
He handed me a mirror—and I fell in love with what I saw.
Even the broken parts.
Even the ones I used to hate.
And maybe that’s what made it all so magnetic—darkness recognized darkness.
I loved the parts of him that mirrored my light—
and I wrestled with the parts that mirrored my wounds. And maybe I was drawn to him because I saw my own wounds in him—and I so desperately wanted to love someone as broken as me.
The grief he carried mirrored the decades of trauma I’ve carried without funeral or closure.
It was never just about him.
It was about healing.
And I did.
And in the process…
I found me.
And now, walking in alignment, my eyes are opening.
Not because God finally showed up—but because I finally could see.
I was never abandoned.
I was just blind.
And now I wonder…
What if the Rapture isn’t one final cosmic event—but something that happens every day?
What if it’s not the end of the world, but the defeat of darkness inside one soul at a time?
Maybe Revelation is happening right now.
Maybe the rapture is when you finally wake up,
Step out of your old self,
And rise into your new one.
“I counsel you to buy from me gold refined in the fire, so you can become rich; and white clothes to wear, so you can cover your shameful nakedness; and salve to put on your eyes, so you can see.”
-Revelations 3:18
-Turaeza Lopez, 3 June 2025