tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11172788493916155742024-03-13T03:05:54.963-07:00Outlets..not just a place to buy cheap stuffmisslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.comBlogger44125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-701927497223225582020-07-31T15:22:00.002-07:002020-07-31T15:22:35.797-07:00Losing Yourself in Contentment <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span class="s2">Have you ever been so content in your life you didn’t even realize you were the reason you weren’t 100% happy? Unhappiness comes in a variety of forms, sometimes starting very early childhood, past traumas, hearts broken over your life, or simply overcoming all of those things to create a wall so tall, you yourself don’t even know how to climb over it or break it. </span></div>
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<span class="s2">Many times most of us are so stuck in our past <span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span>we can’t even recognize the pain or where we are stuck. We know something is off, but putting our finger on that one moment is impossible for us to see or to even fix. There is no one who wants to feel lost, it’s just we don’t know where we are to even find our way out. </span></div>
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<span class="s2">Many who are like this are overachievers. We normally are the ones who appear to have everything together, know what we want, and can accomplish all things another can only fathom. </span></div>
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<span class="s2">What I will tell you is all these things are true, but they aren’t for our better self. They are simply distractions. Distractions from not knowing where we are and how to find our way out. We focus on anything other than ourselves. And by self I mean fully accepting that we have failed at one thing, and that one thing is having internal happiness. </span></div>
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<span class="s2">I don’t write this to state many like me are weak or something is wrong with us. For we are not weak, we are the strongest individuals you will ever meet. What we aren’t is perfect. And for the most part what we aren’t is fully accepting of our traumatic lives we’ve endured and we are lost and just need help finding our way home. </span></div>
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<span class="s2">Finding our way home requires love. If that’s in relationships, friendships, and companionships. What it is not is filling voids for a mere moment to make feeling lost not seem as bad as it really is. These voids come in relationships, friendships and companionships. </span></div>
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<span class="s2">For me personally, I have always been one hell of a goal getter! If I put my mind to something or on someone, nothing stops me from getting my goal. However, with heartbreak or pain of losing, as humans we learn to disengage at some point, because accepting we are lost is a lot easier than trying to find our way out. We call these trials. And for a strong person no trial will ever crush us, but it will hurt us. </span></div>
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<span class="s2">We often tend to subdue these losses with outside influences to remind us of what we think finding our way out would really feel like. </span></div>
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<span class="s2">Yet, with each step forward we don’t realize we are only walking blinded and only digging deeper and deeper into the darkness we are trying to escape from. </span></div>
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<span class="s2">So how do you/we escape? How do we find our way out and find the peace we seek. Well I believe, you must first quit doing things that cause you to feel any type of insecurity. If you continue to cater to these false promises of helping you find your way home, you will he lost forever. Second, no one can help you find your way out. You have to be willing to be uncomfortable and accepting you may remain lost or you will listen to the voices that don’t take from you and you will ultimately find your path to freedom. And lastly, you must look at the place you are stuck in and question, am I really lost at all? Or am I simply afraid that in the moment of feeling lost, I will choose to not accept this is the place I am meant to be and make this my new home. </span></div>
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<span class="s2">Ultimately we choose and make our own happiness. The standards of happiness differ for all, so maybe yours or my happiness really isn’t being lost at all, but it may be the path to a new beginning. Maybe....just maybe....this is a second chance to create a new future and ending. Be aware, accept love that is around you, and never forget that no matter how lost you feel, you are in charge of creating a new direction to a new life. There is great love for you out there, it’s up for you to believe in it. </span></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-7442971668081405002019-06-13T13:28:00.001-07:002019-06-13T17:29:19.670-07:00Dear Lover,<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Existence in this life is everything a person can hope to
achieve. Subsistence in this world allows our souls to travel and grow.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We are blessed with experiences that add to
our existence.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Some of these experiences
are places, some are careers chosen, and more than often some of these
experiences are people. And at the end of the day, we never know when our
existence in any of those areas will expire.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The only thing we are sure of is we went into each experience excited.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
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Excitement because anything new feels good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s like the smell of fresh rain, a newly
mowed lawn, or fresh blooming azaleas on a spring day. Everything just looks,
tastes, and smells better.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You crave that
excitement, and that’s what drives us to dig deeper into each of these occurrences.
It feels all so real at the time you are living it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You can see the future and the goals you’ll
need to get there. And your existence in this world is even more now important because
you now have something to lose. A fear that drives the existence and not the
person living the experience. This is because many of our experience involve
sources outside of our control. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
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So, at times like this, what do you do to let go of
something that never fully existed?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Do
you simply start over and pretend that it didn’t happen? However, that is
easier said than done when your mind and heart still crave that excitement and
feelings you felt as the experienced it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>We all know in time that it will get easier to move on, but sometimes,
there are experiences, or in my case people that will be much harder to move on
from. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<br />
And while I tried all I could to show this person how much I cared, little
things came up that made him uncomfortable and brought up a past hurt for
him.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can completely understand that
fear.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’ve been there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But as a whole hearted woman at this point in
my life, I can’t understand why it’s easier to walk away from greatness for the
fear that one is going to get hurt, but I've been there for much of my life, running and running. Life is full of pain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> Of course you'll get hurt, and of course you'll hurt others. But this is the very condition of existence. To become spring, means accepting the risk of winter. </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
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Waiting for the right moment is not growth.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is putting a wall up to prevent life and
growth from occurring.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Ultimately, until
you find that person or experience that helps you set things apart from the
past, you’ll only continue to live there. I have fallen victim to this mindset
many times, and I am no saint when it comes from running away instead of
working through those fears.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
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Maybe what attracted us both was a broken spirit that lived
within us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We could sense the need to
rebuild it to fully experience existed. We were both on this road to rebuilding
our spirits, however, I think just at different miles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We were both tired of the same thing over and
over again, and craved that excitement a new experience brings.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And like said above, experiences are life and
in life there is joy and pain, but you can’t have one without the other. It’s
all about the road to creating a new experience together.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And while I fully believe he will believe what
comforts his soul to protect his heart I only can request one thing:<o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
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Believe you are whole. Don’t ever think you are broken.
You simply have a past that has created healthy boundaries for what you believe
is important in your seeking of happiness.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span><o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
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This healthy space may work for a while, but don’t stay
there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Please don’t live there, because
if you do you will continue to look for these so-called fears in every woman
you meet. Because we all have a past, and it takes time to create a future
together.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
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Believe and be open to love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Because there is a woman out there that wants to love and care for you,
I know this because I was this woman.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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reason I was stuck for so long.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was
stuck because of fear.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was always just far enough away for me never to
get hurt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> Never dive in. Never share my soul. </span>I knew that I’d never have to
give 100% of my heart because I knew that he never wanted it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I guess looking back now after healing the
last couple years, it was a protective measure, much like you have now. <o:p></o:p></div>
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So, this is why it is very important for you to understand
how important it is to learn to take a chance at a new experience for your
existence, so it ultimately doesn’t creep in like mine did every time something
great is happening to you. Because to become present, means accepting the risk of absence.<o:p></o:p></div>
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happy will make me happy. I am simply thankful for your existence, whether I am
meant to be a part of it or not. I thank God, he put you in my path because you
were a breath of fresh air of what I really want in a man, so thank you for showing
me they are around. Until our next existence, enjoy your experiences.<o:p></o:p></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-67392539161864314562018-11-11T12:51:00.002-08:002019-06-13T17:29:03.795-07:00Offer Your Hand, Not Your Judgment<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Forgive me as I haven’t written in quite awhile. I guess in my past when I was faced with adversities before, putting it on paper and counseling myself through a blog helped me understand the lesson. And since I continued to repeat the lessons, I already knew the answer and didn’t feel the need to explore it. Over the years I’ve gained strength to not play into these lessons. While some could claim this a victory, I don’t see it as this. I see it as each lesson has assisted me in building a Dam, to stop the flow of life’s insecurities. Just like the masonry lays each brick, as did I with every experience I had, until a tall strong dam was built, so that no one could get in and hurt me. The flood of past emotions wouldn’t flow or crash thru. This dam is not something I am happy to have, as I used to be more like the river. The current could be strong and I would continuously flow through it as I knew down the riverbed the white caps would soften. <o:p></o:p></div>
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In the recent years I’ve learned to cast my cares to God and know that no matter the strength of the current he will get me through it, and I have no worries to put that dam up towards the higher power when the enemy tries to get me down. However, with personal interactions with people I still do. The only thing I can do is trust God put them in my life for a reason for me to learn from. And I recently learned a lesson from a passing in the last few months I felt like sharing because it still resonates with me. This lesson was in judgement of others. Our society is quick to judge someone by the way they look, their crowd, and or their past. I am guilty of this too. I like to believe I am not superficial, but when it comes down to it, I have judged others. I am not proud of this assertion and I’ll be perfectly honest, the judgment was purely selfish. What would others think? Would I be judged too? <o:p></o:p></div>
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Let me explain, as a people pleaser, I have struggled with this for my entire life. Putting others opinions before mine or what I want or deserve. I’ll admit I’ve gained strength in this area of my life, but I do still struggle from time to time. The concurrence of wanting to please others but wanting what I want clashes at times. In this clash, I have judged and in the end I was judged as well. We portray we are so perfect at times, as we have no issues, and when you do struggle or fall, everyone wants you to hide it. Like its so uncomfortable for them. But then there are some who you feel you can share with without judgement. You may think you can share because you are close, or you share because you know they have struggled as well so you have a commonality.<o:p></o:p></div>
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In the past I did this. Decided to share some struggles I face that very few friends are aware of. And in this decision to share, I opened myself up to learn about someone, and while I was very interested I chose to let the judgement block me from seeing this person for who they possibly could be. I didn’t want to give up, but I couldn’t rationalize how our lives would mesh. The standards I have created for the perfect picture I have in my mind didn’t align. However, when I was with him, I felt calm, warm, and safe. I felt small, and for a moment I could actually be weak. But those feelings, my hidden struggles at the time, didn’t outweigh his past. Over sometime, I learned more about him and started to really let my guard down. While his pursuit was still there, I was dangling by a string. But I decided I wanted to see him again before I cut the string. When I saw him, the warmth came back, the smell of him, and I knew I could let go. Let go of what others thought. This was my life and I was willing to make my own decisions.<o:p></o:p></div>
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In this mere moment, I opened up to him about my struggles, bouts of depression, and anxiety. What I do to subdue feeling helpless. Often wanting to check out and just be numb sometimes. And I admitted I was so tired. So overwhelmed. That I felt like I was in my own box at times not wanting to let anyone in. Stuck in my head and not knowing who to call to help me out of this dark place. I truly believed he would understand since he had his own struggles in life. And while I had been persistent it was him who was not ready, I had finally admitted my reason for not being ready for a relationship. Too which he agreed after hearing what I was experiencing that I was not the one ready. It wasn’t him. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I guess as the other party, that’s somewhat satisfying knowing that you aren’t the problem, and or what you thought their perfect life they portrayed isn’t real. And while I knew that, I shared who I was so he could help me thru it. I don’t let my current flow thru my dam to many people. But I did, because I felt like I met someone who would understand. And while Im sure he did, and there are no hard feelings, as an individual he made a choice to not stay. And unfortunately, the dam is now higher for the next man, because that is my number 1 fear….being abandoned. Being judged for not being perfect all the time. Being left because you have scars left from your past. And it was then I realized I too had been judged. And it hurts. I wonder if this is how he feels when people judge him. If so, I am deeply sorry. <o:p></o:p></div>
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However, in all this, I am thankful for the lesson. And don't get me wrong, I know I am amazing, smart, strong, successful, a great mother, Boss, CEO, etc...but I'm still working on a partner sent by God. So my dam may have gotten a few more bricks added to it, but that’s ok, because I have faith that someone who comes across this dam will treat it like a bridge and lead me across it to the life God has planned for me. Because ultimately if you judge people, you have no time to love them. There is great love for you here. Its up to you to believe it. <o:p></o:p></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-66237888869819893242017-07-25T20:24:00.001-07:002017-07-25T20:24:10.056-07:00The Current is to Beautiful to be Controlled <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Getting to a point in life where the big things in life no longer consume you can be exhilarating yet very scary. Not in a sense that you feel actual fear, but more of a general understanding of your circumstances, and the numbness that surrounds them is almost awakening. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">You are able to take a step back and remove yourself from any and most situations. I guess this could be translated as finally accepting that you cannot control life no matter how hard you have tried in the past. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Accepting this loss of control isn't easy. Of course you will still face your emotions head on, but once you've stepped back and accepted the situation for what it is, you learn that it is supposed to be. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">I could tie this to many examples. For me personally, I could use my Air Force career as one. At one time in my career I thrived on turning the worst situations into award winning programs and this was done at an expense of myself and to my children. However, at this point in my life, I can sit back and calmly say, I've done enough and my trip on this road is simply done. I don't want to celebrate it, and I don't want to bask in the moment, I simply want to move on to my next successful journey. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">A second example would be getting caught up in the hope for Love or believing that one person must be the one. I've learned over the years that's it's possible to always find "a one" if you are always moving and in the grand scheme of things if you never moved there that person would of never been one. But sometimes you trip over a soul mate, and that's when you definitely just have to let time guide you, but in time...a long time, you realize exactly who they are.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">But when you don't....it's pointless to get upset when things don't end up as you plan, because life is about timing. But most importantly about making a conscious choice on your time. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Let's delve into this conscious choice of time a bit...</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Think about it, if you were walking down the beach and you saw a golf sized diamond 💎 at the base of your feet, do you think you'd walk by it? I mean seriously.. would you pick up that diamond and think to yourself...hmmm, I just don't think it's the right time for me to find a diamond and sell it and make millions from it and live happily ever after so you toss it into the ocean for someone else to find? Of course not!! 10 out of 10 Individuals would pick up that diamond and feel like they won the lottery. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">It's a bit ironic right? </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">How one could easily tie money to their happiness, and make that decision right away but when it comes to love or finding an amazing person, knowing they are the best for you, you can simply step back and say it's not my time for this and toss them back in the ocean? While bewildering I've come to accept at this freedom of loss of control that it's okay to just not be the one. The truth is something was ultimately missing in the connection. If that was a fear, or sexual, or physical, or culturally, or common interests. One puzzle piece just didn't fit and that's life. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">Not being the one does not mean you were not good enough, attractive enough, educated enough...they just knew or you just knew..that throwing a diamond back into the ocean was their decision and you have to respect that and just let it go. Because the next time you wash ashore, there will be someone who treasures what they find. Or sometimes, you will wash ashore again to that same person and they have now learned they'd never take the chance of losing you again, because they know now their love for you is unconditional. You could be a diamond or coal. It doesn't matter because you are invaluable to them. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;">But until then...You beautiful diamonds out there, embrace the feeling of losing control and allow yourself to sink to the bottom of the ocean, where it's quiet, and still. And allow the undercurrents to move you thru the bits of sand and closer to the shore again while you enjoy your surroundings, ultimately knowing you are the most beautiful thing at the bottom. For the sun will still find your glow and allow you to always illuminate at the surface for another to possibly find. </span></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-51482565367213270062016-02-29T09:28:00.000-08:002016-02-29T09:29:49.874-08:00 Don’t let “My Type” define you…Let your “My Wants” be your map to happiness<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="background: white; font-family: Arial;">They say
the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and
expecting different results. How many of us can relate to this? We
all have our demons, habits, or expectations, which we have allowed to drive us
in life. While younger we don’t even realize we are making choices that
were groomed from poor childhoods or even entitled environments. That is
what is so beautiful about humans; we are so unique in our own way. The
differences we experience growing up and living life are all so
individualistic, you are guaranteed to never find someone exactly like you in
life. </span><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">However, these experiences tend to navigate back to our life
whether positive or negative. We constantly repeat the same things over
and over again. This is because we develop a habit for the way the
experiences make us feel. For example, lets use the jumping on the fitness
wagon. Some people love the feeling of freshness, therefore, setting a
goal and starting a new fitness program fires sensors in their brain.
Creating an exercise plan, diet, etc…breaks up the monotony of life and creates
excitement. However, after a few weeks, the freshness wears off and the
joy of the previous goal no longer stimulates the drive for something
new. You all have been extremely supportive over my fitness journey, but
I’ll be honest, this is the first time in 10 years, I have actually followed
through with competing and I am still not there yet. However, this time,
the freshness didn’t matter because the constant results of hard work motivate
me everyday.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">Another area I think we do this in is dating. Something
drives us to a type of person we are “sexually” attracted to. I
have had many types lol…From blond/blue eyes, to only islanders, to only
Latinos…A running joke with my friends is I wont chase a man, but let him
have muscles and tattoos and a Bi$&h might just power walk. I’d say
this has been my type for the past couple years. Dating the same
men, “My so called type”, and expecting a different result each time. And
when I did date someone who didn’t fit this type, I’d get so caught up in
what was my type I never ever gave them a fair shot and ran away before I
would hurt them. I never embraced the good qualities. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">Very recently I met a man I am so very happy to call my
friend. I thoroughly enjoy our conversations and more importantly he
makes me laugh. He communicates about his life freely and really listens
to what I say back to him. For one of the first times in my adult
life I actually feel like I am getting to know someone as an adult. But what
really woke me up is when he asked me what my type of man was. Of
course I went back to my rat wheel and stated the main type of man I
normally date. I could feel at that time as I wrote those words, he
heard what I said, and protected himself in a sort of way. Any smart man
would do that, because one must be careful of what and whom they give
too. But that isn’t what was so eye awakening. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">What really hit me like I got smacked in the head with a frying
pan…JESUS Tess its so easy to see, is this…<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">All these men I have dated over the last couple years may of held
my initial interest but really for one reason…They fit the mold of my troubled
past. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">What I’ve grown accustomed to. That majorly overrated “Bad
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<span style="background: white; color: black; font-family: Arial;">because something woke up in me, and its
beautiful. Because what I realized was no matter what comes of this new
friendship, he is more “My Want” and holds more of what I desire in
someone then any of the men I have dated or even married.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">You see I dated one component of an individual in my past, the “My
Type”, and tried to build and support the rest into “My Want”. Now lets talk
odds for a second. Let’s say you have 10 “My Wants” in someone. For
example, educated, successful, loving, communicative, etc….and the “My Type” is
only one of those…so if you date someone who is only “My Type”…You are dealing
with a very poorly stacked deck…Seriously what are your odds? Maybe 2-3
out 10 qualities that would make you happy. Which may work for awhile,
but at some point the bad is going to outweigh good and you or them are going
pull chalks. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">But when you look at someone, and throw the “My Type” to the side
and really just focus on their qualities and how they fit the “My Wants”, you
quickly realize that your odds of finding happiness are significantly
greater…I’d say maybe even a “Perfect 10”.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">So thank you new friend for helping me realize that Mr. Right will
always be Mr. Wrong if I don’t focus on “My Wants” and not just “My Type”. And
possibly...if they meet your desires of what you want in someone, they really
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">Type" more than you ever realized.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-24854239881741433652015-10-12T12:37:00.002-07:002015-10-12T12:41:52.440-07:00Fear not your enemy, but the one who said they love you <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-size: large;">Fear not your enemy, but the one who said they love
you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As my story tends to go, I opened
up my world to someone who over the past five years showed me more pain and
sorrow than happiness, and in the end, he confirmed what my friends said he
would do for years.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So many times, as I
complained about him, they would say, let him go Turaeza, he doesn’t deserve
you, and I would agree but something always made me accept his good instead of
the bad, and in the end we were like a fire that engulfs itself because it
would get to hot.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">The more I pulled away over the years, the more he entered
into my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I tried to escape many
times, I dated others, but unfortunately, I had allowed him to become my
foundation, and what I would call a my best friend.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was so easy to do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He is what I knew. He was my home. He was
where I wanted to be. And as hard as I tried to take a new path, my trail
always led back to the same place.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A
place I knew he would be waiting for me.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">For some reason, I thought I was different.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t know why I did.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I thought the act of him never leaving my
side was the effort he was able to give at the moment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>While the others (women) came and went, no matter how long they lasted;
I was the one he never gave up on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You
see as a little girl whose father died I have a fear of abandonment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Isn't it so clear that I would hold even
tighter onto something that may have hurt at times because at least I knew it
would always be there?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I don’t think I will understand my decision throughout all this, or why
I thought he was so special.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I don’t
know how I could of let myself believe I was so different when I watched so
many hearts get broken over the years. But I’ve always wanted and chosen to see
the best in others.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That is a strength
and weakness of mine.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I think that
we get to a point in our lives that a circumstance will always appear to show
you the true spirit of someone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The
problem is, I think we see it all along, but excuses are often easier to face
then letting something go, and having to face the unknown.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like a blank piece of paper, waiting for you
to begin your new story without them in it. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">This lesson was hard.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This lesson will stay with me for my entire life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This isn’t a story of friendship and love
that I lost.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know I am always writing
about relationships or my dating disasters.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This was a lesson of allowing a mediocre friendship/love impersonate
what it is like to truly feel something and to experience what the epitome of
loss feels like.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This was a lesson of
ultimate cowardice.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And finally, this
was a lesson of being the easy way out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>You see what I realized when I allowed the anger to subside is he wasn’t
always there when I did not or did need him, nor did he never leave me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> In hindsight, h</span>e never really was there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was I that never left him.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I allowed him to come back when he couldn't face the reality of life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was the one
who held on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I am the one who let go
and walked away.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But in this I gained
something only my heart knows and will cherish until I die, and I have now
accepted it is time to find something not to walk away from.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><o:p></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">So here is to the ones out there who have been hurt. You are not victims. You are fighters, warriors, survivors. Do not allow the actions of one become the bitterness of your future. Take each punch with a grain assault, feel the pain, cry your eyes out, and get the hell back up and press. Press for the life you know you deserve. Ultimately, the only reason you experienced this pain is to help someone else out, recognize the actions so it doesn't occur again, or to truly value the actions of someone who treat you amazing when you find them. Isn't it always that way. The one's who love the hardest or appreciate life's gifts are the ones who know what pain truly feels like or know what it's like to have nothing at all. But in this lesson, I choose to smile and find happiness, and I hope you can too.</span></span></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-45914781923780875582015-09-15T10:54:00.001-07:002015-09-15T10:54:12.201-07:00When your heart breaks... Remember you're not the one walking in shame<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-size: 17px;">When he chose to let go, I believed I was the one who had lost.</span></h3>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">As the minutes, hours and days passed, I came to realize that I was looking at a picture he had painted for me. The vibrant colors that once stained the canvas were beginning to fade. The moment I began to paint for myself again, my soul and heart began to flourish.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I had not lost him; it was he who had lost me.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">He saw the broken spirit within me that I was working hard to rebuild. He was drawn to the passionate energy I was, unknowingly, pouring out all over the place. He was on the same journey but was tired of doing it on his own. The difference between the two of us was that I would have continued to fix myself; I never seeked out others to do a job best done on my own.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I bravely took his hand, trusting that he would do his best to love me, that he would do his best to give me what I needed in return. I was under the illusion that this was the agreement we had come to.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I soon came to see that he loved me, solely, for what I was able to give. I continued to fill up his tank with my love, energy and passion, but every time I would come to him for mine, he never had any to give. My tank eventually ran dry and, instead of trying to find a way to fill it, he chose to move on to another that was already full.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">It was he who had forfeited.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">For me, his exit was the open door back to where I had left off. A door that was now open wider than it had been before.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">For him, it was a tragic love story he chose to write.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">He will miss me.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">He will miss me because my love was deep, genuine and pure.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">He will miss me because my default listening mode was without judgement.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">He will miss me because I wanted to learn him; he was my favorite subject.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">He will miss the way I could bring a sense of lightness to anything I deemed too serious.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">He will miss the way I touched him with purpose and never anything less.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">He will miss the way I would sometimes speak to him with everything other than words.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">He will miss the way I was able to see the optimism when it seemed impossible to find.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">He will miss my welcoming smile that awaited him at the end of every day.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">He will miss my gentle touch that eased him into every morning.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">He will miss my contagious curiosity and need to wonder.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">He will miss my light that I could shine into his darkness.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">He will miss me. </span></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-4712091217119263122015-07-27T06:57:00.001-07:002015-07-27T07:02:51.817-07:00If you are not willing to risk the unusual, you will have to settle for the ordinary<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-size: large;">At some point in our lives we must choose a foolish road and
completely set what we have learned and experienced to the side.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I always get so perplexed when I hear someone
say they settled for someone of something.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Perhaps because I know I am not an average woman and I am far from
basic.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Therefore, I have always felt
that when the right person comes along they should be just as strong and
successful as I. Which on more than one occasion, has never ended great for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>However, I choose not to wallow in what I
didn’t get out of it, as I know meeting them was never for me.<o:p></o:p></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-size: large;">There are many times we come across individuals who are
placed in our life for a small time or a reason.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We tend to grasp to those experiences,
because when we are faced with being alone, we must face the fact that once
again we failed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And in failing, did we
really fail or did we simply not accept settling for something that was never
intended to be in our life as a permanent situation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But why does it hurt every time we ask
ourselves?<o:p></o:p></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-size: large;">I will tell you, I AM SO FUCKING tired of sharing my
story.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Telling people my tale.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Explaining how I grew up, what experiences in
life have made me who I am today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This
is why being alone sucks, but what sucks more is sharing a piece of your heart
with someone and letting them into your history so that they can take all this
information, let it go in one ear…Enjoy you for a moment…and then move on to
something easier.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And like I have told
many women and men, we once again place the blames on ourselves.<o:p></o:p></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">It really is a vicious cycle.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I met a man awhile back and when I tell you
he laid out his life history in a resume, he DID.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You know what I am talking about right?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You can grasp what a man wants from you based
on what he shares with you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Most men do
not want to go into detail about their upbringings, what they want in life,
where they want to retire, etc, unless they see something where you could
possibly be a part of it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is the
case of a resume.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And women...We do the
same thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We talk to please the conversation
and not simply to share our general feelings on a subject.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Do you see what you are doing here?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You are SETTLING!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But are you doing it for the greater good? Hmm…<o:p></o:p></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-size: large;">The crazy thing is you don’t care that you are settling when
you do this, because you are selling your resume.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Hoping they like what is put before them and
will hire you on to their team of life.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-size: large;">So anyhow, this guy sells me his resume and would simply
fall off the face of the earth.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Then
when or if I saw him again and blow him off, the conversation would go full
circle again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Learning more about each
other’s wants in life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sharing very
personal upbringings and discussing your future lives plans.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Then again…falls off the face of the earth,
until repeat 3, 4, 5.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And while this
would normally be very easy for me to brush off, I didn't this time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"></span>In my heart, I wanted to feel what it was
like to just be completely vulnerable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Put it all out there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I felt that
maybe this time I should put the cold heart, the hard mind to the side and just
melt into the thought of a possibility.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And I never saw it as settling, or losing myself, my strength, never for
a moment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I truly believed in my heart
that there was a reason for me to choose being a fool for love than a strong
independent woman who fears hurt and rejection.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">My settling, my choice to be a fool for an imaginary
possibility.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"></span>Well it didn't go anywhere
except for complete silence. And while I felt a bit of pain, I couldn't help
but smile.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Smile for two reasons.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One, I knew it wasn't me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I still knew I was amazing even with the
rejection.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And two, because it woke me
up to the fact that sometimes settling is not such a bad thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sometimes it is just a moment when you
realize that everything this person has or has endured is something you can see
your life supporting and loving.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And
that is not a bad thing at all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is
just a moment and person you could see settling in life with.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To feel completely accepted and loved without
reason.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And ultimately if I can find
that with someone again, I would be ecstatic risk the unusual to settle for love and not ordinary. </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-29116687611449460872015-02-24T09:56:00.003-08:002015-02-24T09:59:14.712-08:00Rose in No Man's Land<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">A Rose in No Man’s Land<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Typically in
historical times, the conventional mindset was war is a man’s fight.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>However, there are more than 250 documented
cases of women who served in the ranks of both the Union and Confederate armies
dressed as men, an act at once rebellious and patriotic, using this usurped
male social identity to claim full status as citizens of their nation and
access male independence in an age when neither was available to women.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>These sacrifices were at times patriotic, and
at other times were out of love to remain close to their husbands.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>These amazing women encountered intolerable
conditions to change a society of suffrage and to give us the rights we are
afforded to at this moment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And to date,
the total numbers of women who serve in the Department of Defense only make up
approximately 14.5% of the total force.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">As a proud
woman serving for almost two decades in the Air Force, I have come across a
variety of women serving.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I would tell
all who read this to never judge a book by its cover.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Treat a woman as an individual first, and
allow them the opportunity to prove their dedication to the mission.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Being a girly girl myself, I have been
misjudged many times over my career.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And
of all that have been honest with me later on about judgment, told me that they
judged me first on gender and personality and after I had earned their respect
for my leadership and professionalism, exclaimed they would stand behind me any
day in any battle.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I tell you this
because it is honest, and many times we avoid honest facts as to not offend
another individual.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I say instead of
fearing judgments, be yourself, embrace your personality and characteristics
you were born with, and show all those who work with you or for you what a “Jet
Packing” lady looks like. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">I know it’s
not easy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Our lives upbringings often
dictate our behaviors and mentalities on many subjects.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Personally working with a “tribe” of women on
the USAFE Inspector General, I have personally seen how many women adapt to the
environment they work in to achieve success due to working in a male dominated
career field. While I know this is a norm, I would preach to the young women in
the Armed Forces to embrace your confidence and the characteristics that you
carry as a woman.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One of these characteristics,
personally my strongest trait and by far my favorite, is empathy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Empathy is the ability to recognize and share
people’s feelings and one of the most important tools in a leaders tool box. In
Simon Sineks latest best selling book, he states, “the lesson I’m learning is
that I’m useless by myself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My success
hinges entirely on the people I work with, people who enlist themselves to join
me in my vision.”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Know your people, show
them you care, and in the end, your people will take care of you regardless of
gender.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Lastly, I
would ask you contribute to the cycle of history.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Make our military a better place for
all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Understand that success and ideas
are placed in your heart for a reason.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It is up to you to take a plan, put it into action, and be willing to
stand behind it whether it succeed or fails.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Ultimately, if your passion furthered a program, you succeeded
regardless.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Women are going to
continually grow in our armed forces and acquire higher positions.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>With these acquisitions of positions, the
direction of our Armed Forces will change with broader understandings and
innovative changes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Areas of focus will
further you, and your capabilities in the military.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For example when I joined the Air Force, GI
Jane was once just a movie, but in my short time, women are now entering
piloted programs to serve in active combat roles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">I’ll conclude with this,a new personal legacy of mine
that I will share with each of my female Airmen.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">This is the story of a Rose in No Man’s Land.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It goes: <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">I've seen
some beautiful flowers,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Grow in
life's garden fair,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">I've
spent some wonderful hours,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Lost in
their fragrance rare;<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">But I
have found another,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Wondrous
beyond compare.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">There's a
rose that grows on "No Man's Land"<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">And it's
wonderful to see,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Tho' its
spray'd with tears, it will live for years,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">In my
garden of memory.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">It's the
one red rose the soldier knows,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">It's the
work of the Master's hand;<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Mid the
War's great curse, Stands the Red Cross Nurse,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">She's the
rose of "No Man's Land".<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Out of
the heavenly splendour,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Down to
the trail of woe,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">God in
his mercy has sent her,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Cheering
the world below;<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">We call
her "Rose of Heaven",<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #1c1c1c;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">We've
learned to love her so.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">While the
story of a Rose in No Man’s Land once stood for our Red Cross nurses who
supported men in combat, I say we broaden this mindset to all women in the Armed Forces now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because, while just a flower, a rose withstands
life in some of the harshest environments, yet stands strong with beauty
throughout all seasons.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> Congratulations! </span>You are now the roses
of no man’s land.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Let’s leave a legacy
and continue to stand strong and stand tall!<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-16710904292096502742015-01-22T23:36:00.000-08:002015-01-22T23:50:16.487-08:00Fan the Flames of a Cold Heart<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-oyR5jHgEGCE/VMH4uofR1TI/AAAAAAAAAQI/V6Z3mE7bThQ/s1600/snowheart.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-oyR5jHgEGCE/VMH4uofR1TI/AAAAAAAAAQI/V6Z3mE7bThQ/s1600/snowheart.jpeg" /></a></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Loving someone with a cold heart is hard to do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When you are with them, you get slight
glimpses of their soul, and within days you can feel the tension that
encompasses their aura.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You put time and
effort into chiseling the beautifully crafted ice sculpture, however, it seems
your attempts to put a dent in their icy surroundings goes unnoticed and are
even more are unwelcomed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Cold hearts
are nature’s way of protecting the fire that burns within.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Its like a volcano that steams below the
earth, peaked and protected by a thick core mountain top draped in soft
snow.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The layers of protection to keep
the fire burning within are endless, and the last thing anyone wants to do is
unleash that passion without being prepared to be engulfed with hot lava. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Cold hearts are afraid.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This is because they were once warm, even hot.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Believing and trusting the intentions of
everyone they ever met.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They believe do
unto others as you want done to you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It
brings them joy to make another person smile.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It’s almost as if they walk a romantic life everyday, just without the
romance.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Whether, friend, lover, or foe,
a cold heart will always consider your feelings and attempt to accept your pain,
because only a cold heart knows what it feels like to be lied to, hurt, and
broken.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"><br /></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Cold hearts are beautiful and possibly one of the most
amazing things another can experience.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>They distant themselves from painful feelings because they don’t want to
feel.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not in an “I don’t want to feel at
all sense”, but more of an “I am currently at my pain threshold, and I need you
to understand that”.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Hurt hurts, and
doing it alone is even harder.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If you
are not alone at this moment, you will never understand that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Don’t question a cold heart.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Ultimately, a cold heart was once just
something that loved to hard. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">So when you meet this cold heart, love them harder. Fan the
flames and show them that love and honesty are achievable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The heart is like snow, beautiful but cold,
and sometimes, some people are worth melting for. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Love it anyway!</span><o:p></o:p></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-77850292997211324682014-10-26T10:15:00.001-07:002014-10-26T10:17:32.295-07:00*WARNING...The Mishaps of Selective Hearing <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-size: large;">At what point in our lives do we choose to hear only what we
want to hear and not the actual words coming out of someone’s mouth?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So there I am sitting with a “romantic male”
friend of mine.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We are having a great
time, and he looks at me and says, “You are the most amazing woman I have ever
met, and you have all the qualities I hope to find in a woman”…So sweet
right?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Well that is not what I heard at
all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What Turaeza heard was, “You are so
amazing, however, you are not the woman I want”.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Instead of hearing the words at face value,
my insecurities and being a realist knows that is exactly what he meant in my head.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because at this point, if I chose to dive in
and tell him what I would want, then that would mean I would have to allow
myself to be vulnerable and to hear him say, I really don't think it would
work.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Do you ever ask yourself why you are not the one?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I do constantly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why am I the one who someone won't choose long
distance with?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why am I the one who
someone won't settle down for?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And the
weirdest thing, is how do all these guys who I couldn't seem to make love me
enough, still hold me so deep in their heads and hearts... And that they continue to tell me they would marry me, love me, etc…
It really makes no sense to me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Its like
I have become a mirage to many men around the world.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I'm not real.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>However, at some point, I have been very real in their lives.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Real enough for one reason or another a
decision had to be made on what we were or what we were going to do, and I
wasn't their choice.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I could pin it down to a few things.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>First off being timing or location.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe they are at a different point in their
lives when you meet.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Or maybe I
intimidate them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe knowing what I
want and being so strong and having everything I need means they feel they
can’t give me more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Challenged by this I’ve
even downplayed my ability to take care of things in the recent years.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Oh I don’t change a tire”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Can you help me hang this on the wall” I
can't figure this electronic out” All things I could easily figure out on my
own, however the conscious decision to make it appear I need them seems to have
become part of my game. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like maybe my
independence drives them away and if I were a bit more needy, maybe I would be
the one they choose.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">These men have given me some great memories and showed me
what I want as well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Each one had a
different characteristic about them that really appealed to me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’ve danced in the moonlight, eaten breakfast
in bed, ran along the ocean and looked for shells like a child.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One man gave me the best Mother’s day of my
life because my children weren't with me to celebrate.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And when I cried in his arms that night
because I didn't even get to talk to them, he hugged me and we looked out at
the ocean. I've giggled and kissed at a fair, while people walked by talking
about how cute we were.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I’ve laid by
their side at night with my hand on their hearts believing that maybe this one…maybe
this one choose me over life’s harsh realities.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Now in my perfect brain, I know there is ABSOLUTELY nothing
wrong with me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know that with each
person that hasn't worked is God telling me they aren't the right one. And I
know I will find a man one day who will give me the world…but in this blog…I'm
not reaching for a solution to share…. I am genuinely bewildered how you can be
so amazing and yet not good enough at the same time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This has to be life’s most challenging
riddles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And since I will never know, the
only thing I can do is keep trying.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Because one day, one day I'm going to meet a man will tell me I am the
most Amazing woman he has ever met, and I have all the qualities he wants in a
woman.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And that’s exactly what I will
hear….</span><span style="font-family: Times; font-size: 10.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-88747518005994961812014-10-10T07:22:00.001-07:002014-10-10T07:27:00.745-07:00What lies behind us and what lies before are tiny matters compared to what lies within us<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<h2 style="text-align: left;">
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">Being alone and single is beyond overrated. However, the blessing in it is the chance for
self-focus. Focus on areas of your life
you need to improve, or what you truly value.
Additionally, I am sure there were plenty of relationships before this
point that have contributed to your desires in your life. Bad dates, interesting people, seeing a
future with someone on a first date, and heartache are all significant factors
who have made us who we are. I mean come on. When we were little girls, every story had a
happy ending. Isn’t it plausible that we
would want the same things in life? I
have seen many friends who have found that happy ending. But what are the factors that make this
ending possible? I don’t think that
there is really a task list to get one of us there, but I do strongly believe
that the moment someone meets someone they know.<o:p> </o:p></span></h2>
<h2 style="text-align: left;">
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">I have dated a few..very very very few in the past years of
being single that I actually saw a future with.
The others I may have tried to make myself believe that at some point I
would feel stronger for them. This
obviously came in the forms of very very very nice men and very very very mean
men. There were few and far in-between
men that did make me throw out every insecurity I have developed. Its hard for a strong woman or man to be
insecure, because of past experiences they have allowed someone to chip at her
sweet loving walls. The walls that were
put up in an effort to protect her valuable asset. With each chip removed, her heart grew bigger,
pumped stronger, facilitated breath to her sweet lips, which exhaled tender
exhilarations of life. The walls she
never wished or requested but surrounded her with so much strength, that they
spoke to her. They consoled her on hurt
evenings and allowed tears which fell with shame from her beautiful face. Her strength masked a smile to those around
her and she had become the ultimate puppet master of her own life. This in-between moment is what we all seek to
find at some point in our lives. <o:p> </o:p></span></h2>
<h2 style="text-align: left;">
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large; font-weight: normal;">The in-between moment involves a man or a woman to walk
their own path, to climb each stair and climb over mountains to reach an
independence that is so exhilarating, that the moment of being whole drives a
desire to keep climbing. But when do we
know when to stop? I don’t know if there
is an alarm that will go off, but I can say, that questioning your staircase
isn’t the answer. Keep climbing. Each stair will get smaller, and eventually,
I know we will all reach the top. And at
the top, with arms open wide, we can inhale the happiness of life and
love. Once you reach that point my
loves. Take one step down. The one you have been waiting for will be
waiting for you. Ultimately, what lies behind us and what lies before are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.</span></h2>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-3590883491193749222014-08-08T05:11:00.001-07:002014-08-08T05:11:30.882-07:00Can you create your perfect Modeled MAN???<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span class="s1">What weighs on your mind? I have gotten to a place where I am so secure with myself that not much weights on my mind. I don’t let the little things get to me as I used to. I have realized that these hardships are only insecurities we create in our own head. Heed example. A man and woman start to converse. The woman is instantly wrapped up. Because of men she has dated in the past, she applies the insecurities to this current situation, and BOOM! Shit implodes. Accusations, Large TEXTING letters of how you wont settle for his shit…Well OK, maybe this isn't every situation, but I guarantee you it happens 99 percent of the time. And why does this happen? Well I will tell you why I think why…It boils down to something we call our self worth and what most women tend to do…Romanticize the idea of a “honda”..okay lets use a “pinto in this case. And in shitty cars I am referring to shitty men. The better the cars get, then the better the men get.</span></div>
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<span class="s1">The differences between men a women are huge!!! Listen hard ladies…because this is something you already know but don't want to face. We buy cars that appeal to us. The new KIA is pretty damn awesome, beautiful and sleek, yet would I buy one? Nope. Why??? Well its just not my type of car. It doesn't mean the car isn't amazing. Its just not my type of car. The problem that lies with most women is we think because we aren't a Lexus, well then we are not a quality product. Well I am telling you to quit comparing yourself to a different brand. All ethnicity's are beautiful. There are plenty of men who love the KIA and not the Lexus. I mean come on, a Lexus is pretty high maintenance…OK enough of the cars…What I am trying to say is you identify what your self worth is. If you are having a problem figuring that out, please take a moment to self reflect. Ill tell you my self worth. Notice it is not plural…Its purposely singular and boils down to one thing. RESPECT. If you don't respect me, you will not be around for long. Respect surrounds everything I have become over the last few years. And there is nothing that I will do to succumb to jeopardizing the self respect I have for myself. I will not change who I am. I will not accept mediocrity. And I will not spend my time trying to rebuild a damn pinto into a Jaguar.</span></div>
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<span class="s1">But the real problem is why??? Why do we women try to build or change someone into someone they are not. Well I think that instinctively we naturally are built to nurture someone. We spend our entire lives playing house and building them. Naturally we would do the same in adulthood. But what we are failing to fully understand, that it is okay to support and nurture your mate, it is not okay to take a model that will never be a compatible match and change them into something you desire. The desire must be within themselves. Change will never occur unless the person experiencing the changes want it to happen. And I fully believe that not everyone is perfect, and there will always be something that is incompatible. But those are the small sacrifices you make. It’s like building a sundae. You may want ice cream, fudge, whip cream, nuts and a cherry on top. But maybe your partner is nut less (innuendo purposely placed), and that is something you can complete with your personality.</span></div>
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<span class="s1">Bottom line to all this is there is no perfect time to meet Mister or Misses right. It will happen when is is meant to happen. And it will not happen until you define exactly what you are seeking in your partner. So quit changing who you are. You are just fine. Find someone who completes your heart’s desire. Then your happily ever after will happen. "Patience is power. Patience is not an absence of action rather it is "timing" and it waits on the right time to act, for the right principles, and in the right way"-Fulton J. Sheen</span></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-49304614895806077282014-04-14T11:14:00.000-07:002014-04-14T11:14:44.320-07:00Out of your vulnerabilities will come your strength.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman";"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I haven’t blogged in quite sometime.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m sure it’s because I am busy, and possibly
have become a bit confidential when it comes to my own experiences.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am also sure it was because I was dating
someone for a slight moment (quickly learned. Still not ready) and since they
were my friends on Facebook I was unable to express the emotions ripping
throughout my soul.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This past year has
been a whirlwind of pain, strength, and happiness.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At some points I am unsure if I am up or if I
am down, however I feel much more up nowadays.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I have separated myself from people who require me to take care of them,
and I am watching intensely to see who reaches out to me when I step away.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The days of me being nice and caring for
others are over.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have learned that there
is only one person who is true, and that person is me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am all I ever will have.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And while I love my children with all my
heart, and I miss them dearly everyday, I have learned in these past 9 months
that they will leave me one day as well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>That this is the time for me to truly find what strengthens me and
blesses me everyday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is on my
shoulders to erase my past to build a prominent future.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">So with months of a combustion of emotions
that I have kept to myself, and blogs I have played out in my head but not put
on paper, I am going to focus on three topics that I have studied intensely in
my head.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">The first is recognizing you
are a beautiful flower.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">Women remind me
of all the flowers of the world.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">We all
have different beauties, but instead of embracing those beauties we tend to
wish we looked more like the elegant rose or the bright sunflower.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">We don’t recognize that even the wild
dandelion shines bright of gold or the sexiness of an orchid.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">Why as women can we look at all these flowers
and recognize the beauty of each, but when examining ourselves, we find faults
and feel we would be worth more if we looked like a long stemmed Iris Women! Quit tearing each other down. Casting stones at others may make you feel better for a moment. But the bottom line is you are a beautiful flower
and if you weren't picked by a random passerby, it wasn't because you weren't beautiful, but because you need a bit more time to grow before you bloom to
your full potential.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">The second topic of discussion is removing
you from a situation that no longer serves your better good.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">I have always been one to give advice, well
look what I am doing here, but there comes a point where I have learned it no
longer serves me to listen to you.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">I
have provided you the tools and perspectives that someone else doesn't have the
guts to tell you.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">Why won’t others tell
you the truth?</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">Well it’s easy…because it
jeopardizes a place in your life.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">If
they tell you what you want to hear, you keep them around because they are
feeding your decisions and insecurities.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">
</span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">I love one of my best friends, because at a time I made decisions she didn't agree with, she cut me off.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">She wasn't immature, she wasn't rude, she just removed herself from the situation</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">At a point when I grew a little, we discussed
it and she saw my perspective and I believe saw my heart was raw and I truly
loved my decision, and from that point on, she supported me in the corner, but
the best part was I knew she was there from then on out.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">So while giving advice, I am often raw and
blunt and can be perceived as a bit heartless.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">
</span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">But this is because I love you.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">
</span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">If I didn’t love you, I wouldn't tell you anything.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">However, I will not stand by and not support
reckless decisions anymore.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">Simply
because, its not worth my time, and during emotional times in a persons lives,
they are not asking because they need guidance, they are asking because they
want confirmation that what they are doing is okay.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">So if you need this confirmation…more than
likely what you are doing is going against the greater good of your plan.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">Lastly, love….I always come back to love
now don’t I.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">And I would say this is one
of my least educated topics.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">I fall
and fall out very easy.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">It doesn't take
much for me to find a fault, and let that fault erode the entire relationship.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">I don't see this as a bad thing though, I
think of this as me being strong enough as a woman to finally to stand up for
what I want in someone.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">In the past
three years, I have loved.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">I have fallen
in love.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">And I have hated at
moments.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">The men I have loved, I still
will love for a long time.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">And while
being alone, I have realized I loved a man that I didn't know I loved when I was with him.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">But I don’t dare alter
what God has planned for me.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">Because I
loved does not mean they were or are the one, it simply means, they had
qualities I need to look for in man.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">At
this point in my life, with my children separated, retiring in three years, and
finding my true happiness, I know in all my heart, it is not the time to build
a life with someone else.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">I am only 35
after all…I have many more years to sit with my best friend on a front
porch.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">But the last thing I have learned
being alone, is our choices may not always be the best, but they were what
needed to happen to reach our full potential.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">
</span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">While I wouldn't change any of my decisions I have made, I believe I owe
a man who was a part of my life for a decade a life size apology.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">I believe I really broke this man.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">I took away his life, his home, and his
children.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">I wasn't the best wife.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">I tried the best I knew how, but I couldn't fix something when I didn't know a major part of the problem was myself.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">It was so much easier for me to pass the
blame to someone else.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">This apology
doesn’t define feelings, it simply is me from the bottom of my heart, I am
sorry.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">I am sorry for hurting you.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">I am sorry for breaking up our family. And I
am sorry I didn't try harder.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">It is your
birthday today. I hope you have an amazing one.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">
</span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">Please continue to care for our children while I am away.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">Forgiveness is hard.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">But when you let hate remain in your heart,
its bares a burden far heavier that of what may have occurred.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">So in that, I forgive you as well for what
you have made me face.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">This is your chance
to be a father I never allowed you to be.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">
</span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">Please be thankful that you have this chance, as each day with our
babies is a blessing.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">So in the end, I have learned three
important lessons over the past year.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">
</span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">Being alone doesn't mean you are lonely.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';">
</span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">It means you haven't found a barrier to prevent you from feeling what
you need to feel to heal.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">That
forgiveness is one of the hardest things to do, but if you can't find a way to
forgive, you will never heal and will never grow into the beautiful flower you
were meant to be.</span><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman';"> </span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman;">And lastly, </span><span style="background: white; color: #181818; font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">just because I liked something at one point in
time doesn't mean I'll always like it, or that I have to go on liking it at all
points in time as an unthinking act of loyalty to who I am as a person, based
solely on who I was as a person. To be loyal to myself is to allow myself to
grow and change, and challenge who I am and what I think. The only thing I am
for sure is unsure, and this means I'm growing, and not stagnant or shrinking.</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-11277968543572862552013-09-26T12:46:00.001-07:002013-09-26T13:21:12.401-07:00Don't Stop Chasing Butterflies...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Life’s decisions weren’t made for dummies. Many times we
make rash or drastic decisions based on emotion instead of rational thought or
fact.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We don’t foresee the pain ahead.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We live in the now, and truly believe if we
follow that little voice in our head, then our happily ever after ending will
soon come true.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That fate can be seen in
the distance.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All the while, never
seeing how we may hurt or lose something so near and dear to us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I thought of this the other day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I was seeking my own happiness, I truly believed
I was doing it for the better of myself and my children.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I felt smothered when I was married.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was unhappy, and I wasn’t free spirited or
caring as I once had been.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I resented
caring for people because I cared so many years for a man who didn’t or couldn’t
give to me in the ways I needed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He took
me for granted and in turn I did the same to him.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I reached a point I could no longer hold on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t do this on my own.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I leaned on friends, or made up destinies in
my head.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I told myself my children would
be much happier growing up knowing their mother the way she should be and not
what she had become.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I never imagined those
three short years later, I would be blogging in my bed and my children living
across the world from me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I never
imagined I would cry myself to sleep every night just at the thought of them,
or feeling so alone, I just turn myself off and sit in front of my IPHONE for
hours.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because ultimately, not feeling
is much better than feeling anything at all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span><o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">When we go thru hard times, we tell ourselves and friends
that “everything happens for a reason”.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I’ve said it many times to friends.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I mock the thought that a parent who loses a child to custody or death
can fathom that this ultimately happened for a reason.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You resent the fact that there are so many
dead beat mothers and fathers out there, yet you, who love your children with
all your heart, are forced to live away from them. I’ve ultimately realized my decision was
selfish and I am now paying the price for it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The BIG Problem with marriage nowadays is we go into with the thought
that, hey if this doesn’t work, well We can just get a divorce.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We marry extremely young, and instead of
focusing on how to grow together, our personalities are so different by the
time we are in our mid 20’s, we merely just stick around because it’s either
comfortable or for the children.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I find
that sad, because I will tell you that I never thought I would lose friends or
my kids with this decision that I made.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>And I now ask myself….Was it worth it?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">When we make these life changing decisions, if that’s to
divorce, marry, cheat, run away, break up, take a step back and examine all the
consequences of your actions.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am a
firm believer in living in the present.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>We must make decisions that ultimately affect the now, but one thing we
forget to consider is are we ultimately changing our destiny due to our own
impatience?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not telling you not to
follow your gut, but what I am saying is you must get to a point where you line
up with your decisions.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You must truly
believe in your decision so you can manifest the destination to which you want
to achieve.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We often find ourselves lost
when we take action before you find alignment to which your goal you wanted to
achieve.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will be honest, and friends
here in Germany can attest this is the truth.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>As soon as I moved in, I told a few friends I did not see my children in
my home.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just couldn’t visualize them
there with me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You could call it a premonition
or was I manifesting my destiny before it could even happen. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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the evils we trying so hard to run from, how do we crawl out of this valley we
are stuck in?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m not sure, I can tell
you that, but I can also tell you what I plan on doing….I’m going to chase
butterflies, or in other words follow my impulses.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If you take the time to stay off the subject
of intention, your impulse will lead you to a rendezvous in the right
direction.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Focus on the now and the
positivity you so desire.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Treat all people
with kindness, and separate yourself from dramatic situations which no longer
serve your impulses.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because if you get
too caught up in the intention of a desire, you lose focus of what butterflies
are worth being chased because you are so centered on one intention.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">My goal is to convince you to truly believe that the
Universe is already aligning my future and yours.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You don’t need to ask for more because you
just stir up the negative emotions that go along with the desire…Just let go…Tell
yourself I’ve already asked and the universe is working it out, now I just need
to get in the place to let it in.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Our
biggest mistake is we believe we have to work hard and that if we work hard the
break will come only in the struggle.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But
instead, we need to believe that if the break comes it will be in spite of the
struggle and if it comes in spite of the struggle, it won’t be that bad of a
break.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s all about trust and
believing you are worthy and deserving what you ask for from the universe.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The only thing that is standing against you
achieving everything you ask for from the universe is you simply don’t believe
you really deserve it. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is great
love for you here.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s up to you to
believe it.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-86813377955367004252013-05-08T14:06:00.001-07:002013-05-08T14:10:36.537-07:00Welcome to the Facebook show and Law of Attraction<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">I think that Apple products combined with Facebook will be
the end of demise for our current generation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I seriously wake up every morning and as I drink my coffee I check Facebook.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I take my phone everywhere.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I seriously believe that I check Facebook at
least 30-50 times a day. I will spend hours on it at night, seeking some new
sort of information that generates my interest.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Is our own lives so boring that we have to read about other friends
lives to take up our time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In my 34
years, I would say that the technological age took a hard shift in about 1997-1999
right after I graduated high school and while at my first base.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is when cell phones became so
abundant.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Still the introduction of the
smart phone is what really killed it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This didn’t happen to me until about 2009 because I lived overseas, and
my cell was for calling people or texting.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But what did the introduction of the cell phone do? It took away the
need to communicate with people directly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Then texting, e-mailing, etc, quickly eliminated any need of personal
contact at all…And now…well now FACEBOOK is a cancer that is at a stage 4 in a
lot of our lives.<o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">I understand it’s
your page, say what you want, post, or share whatever, but at the same time, I
am the reader, what if I don’t want to read or see what you have to say.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Now I know you instantly want to defend
yourself, but here me out on this one.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">First off, you choose your friends.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The people who see your every move is by your
choice and yours alone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A friend is
someone you trust, will not judge you, or use your mistakes to their advantage.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Nor, will they do anything that would hurt
you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Therefore, your reason to state why
someone is not being a friend, as if they are going to read your status boggles
me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why are they on your page in the
first place? People don’t become shady overnight, so bottom line you either
need to learn what a friend is or you need to filter your friends list, because
I, your friend, don’t want to hear empty threats of deletion or telling someone
off, when all I have done is be your friend. I simply don’t need that type of
drama or negativity in my life.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">Second.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why do you
threaten deletion? If you don’t like someone, why make an announcement to each
and every one that you are going to delete people.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I have seen many reasons, as many of you reading this now too have and in all they all in....CONSIDER YOURSELF DELETED BY THE TIME YOU FINISH
READING THIS POST.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Really?! Why the
empty threats.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Have you engaged
yourself in social media so much that you can’t even confront your so called
friend one on one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Think about 5<sup>th</sup>
grade. If your best friend made you mad, you passed a note in class to her or
him or called it out on the playground. You didn’t pass a note each and every
person in hopes they (your so called best friend) might see it, and as well get
a poster made and tape it on the door, YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND ANYMORE.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My point here is our children are already
engrossed in this type of behavior. We are the teachers, the groomers, we are building the next generation. The generation where<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> e</span>very
child gets a trophy for trying.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And we
are simply passing down a toxic form of communication down as adults. We wonder why children and young adults are
weaker today than when we were teenagers.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The simple truth is lack of confrontation and I believe we use the word
friend loosely.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If someone is your true
friend, you wouldn’t have to defend yourself on Facebook, because honestly, I
just don’t want to see it. Oh did I already say that? Yea I did.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Third, why do we feel we need to use Facebook as a mirror to
our soul.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Now I know, you see an image,
and you feel passion behind it, so it’s your page, go ahead and share it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> Its your damn page in the first place. </span>I do it; it’s nice to see something you
relate to, because ultimately it is your page.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>However, what I am discussing is when you change your status or share a
picture because you want someone to see it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>If you wanted them to see it that bad, and you know in your heart that
this picture is for one person, why not text it to them, or message it to
them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why post it for all of your
friends to see.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> And lastly, </span>If you aren’t in texting
status anymore, why the hell are they on your Friends list?<o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">My last plan of thought here is FACEBOOK
has become a valid personality test. I can see which of my friends are single,
married, going thru a divorce etc.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
know if you are in a relationship and trying to reach out of it. I can tell what is going on in someone's lives merely because of statuses, self pictures, or images. You have made
it easy for me to see if you are needy, a gold digger, happy alone, or
emotionally unattached and not ready to grow up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I think it is really sad.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just because I know I have had my moments
too.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I’m going to close with
this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If all you are experiencing is
negative events or dealings with negative people, check your Facebook page on
your last year of statuses… I can almost guarantee you will only see negative
posts.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You are attracting what you put
off.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Find peace in yourself, eliminate
those who do not bring you positivity, and pay kindness forward.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Think before you post, and always do the
right thing because you want to, not because of what you want someone to see
it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">Keep in mind that truthful words are not always beautiful, beautiful words are not always truthful. So be right in your own setting and what you say will be delivered just as you intended. Fear and Anger are fed with fire, don't fuel that fire and it will die, and those who bring you such negativity will no longer have a purpose in your life.</span> </span> </span><o:p></o:p></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-79701594089002363792013-04-25T12:45:00.000-07:002013-04-25T12:50:45.299-07:00Learning to Walk Sets you FREE! Now its's Time to DANCE!!!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Taking back your heart and what you’re willing to give to
the world is the most rewarding feeling I have ever encountered in my
life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t see any of my experiences
as failures, but I feel that they were put in front of me to take bits of
lessons and apply them to where I am now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I’ve made a few mistakes over the last 2 years since my divorce.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Some personal and some professional, but “Hey”…isn’t
that expected when we are learning.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We don’t
tell our children they will never walk, or carry them throughout their lives
when they take those first steps.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They fall down, and we gently pick them back
up and tell them to do it again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is
what I have done, and what I urge anyone who is feeling overwhelmed or any sense
of failure in your life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We learn a lot
in the Air Force.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>One thing that is
ingrained in our minds are the four components of wellness.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They are Spiritual, Emotional, Physical, and
Social.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When we are at one with these
four areas, our soul is sound.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And there
will be times when one area is completely F@$#d up, and that’s when you know, it’s
time to take your life back.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Let’s
discuss…..<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Spiritual-I have many friends who are very spiritual and
others that are not.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t believe
this focuses on the bible nor any other lord you may worship.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What I think spiritual wellness refers to, is
knowing exactly what you want and who you are.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Not being afraid to take a chance, even if it’s the scariest thing you
have done your whole life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Because in
the end, you never fail.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You would never
know if you succeeded unless you tried, and in my opinion, trying is
NEVER failing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Like I said earlier, we never
think a toddler fails when he falls learning to walk, so why are we so hard on
ourselves.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The bottom line measure here,
is loving yourself first.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When you find
love in yourself, you will experience something unconditional.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You know longer linger for a text, fret when
you don’t hear from someone, or doubt yourself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Because you love you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And if they
love you, they’ll come around, and if they don’t , thank the God you do or don
t believe in that they have allowed you to move on.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Emotional-…….hmmmm….do I go at a woman’s approach here or a man’s.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I recently asked a question to my men out
there how they feel about women.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Is sex
like going to gym? Do they have to be attracted to a woman to sleep with her?
And how do we know if a man ever really even liked us and simply wasn’t just
using us for sex.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We women are some
emotional freaks.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It boils down to cave
man times, while during sex a serotonin is released from our brain that
attaches us to the man we are sleeping with.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Well WOMEN, if you want to act like a man, think like one, THEN START
ACTING LIKE A LADY.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Case in point, we WILL
NEVER <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>be men.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We will never get what we want, by allowing
someone to use us. Realize WE run the game. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We decide if we want you or not.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If they don’t put in the effort, well they didn’t
want you bad enough.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I would rather lose
someone thru texting because I didn’t give it up, then give it up, develop
feelings, and linger for their responses.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Once you find this, you don’t care who texts you anymore.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You are so self-confident in who you are and
what you can give to someone, that you wake up everyday, and text yourself Good
Morning Beautiful! <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I kid….But seriously,
God it feels good.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My last point here,
is quit tearing yourself apart about what was wrong with you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A great quality of mine, is I am friends with
almost every guy I have semi-dated or really dated in the past two years.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Well that’s if I want to be.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And the bottomline, while most of them are
the ones who pulled away first, I have learned that it was never about me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was them, where they were at in their lives.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And this is confirmation to me, because I never
reach back to an ex. EVER….I’m stubborn that way, but I’m also very grateful,
they came back into mine to teach and reaffirm any doubts I had when I was
weak.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Physical-We all struggle on the physical side.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We never feel were enough, and we are the
most judgmental of ourselves.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>INCLUDING
ME!!! Here’s honesty… I weighed in yesterday at 135 lbs. EEEEKKKKK!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Now I know I have a lot of friends who would
love to weigh 135 pounds, but for me, I am DYING.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I embrace my curves, my butt is def getting
bigger, which I LOVE lol…but I really love being 125 lbs.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t know it is about that number, but I
feel my best at it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So it doesn’t matter
what shape magazine wants you to be, what your partner wants, what your
personal trainer wants, because in the end, if you don’t want it…ITS NOT GOING
TO HAPPEN!!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You will motivate
yourself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And ask a friend.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Many people probably admire everything about
you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They love your shape, they love
your curves, and many men or women lol…think you are attractive.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Recent story…I’m feeling like shit, 10 lbs
heavier than normal, but still looking good ;-)…met a couple a girls at class,
who have become good friends of mine in the last few weeks, and they come up to
me the first time we met, and was like “I want your body”…Now while I’m over
here, tearing myself apart…I’m motivating others to do well for
themselves.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So take a second look
sometimes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>While I love my jeans…and my
besties KNOW I love ‘em tight! If I want it bad enough, I’ll lose it, and if I don’t,
well I still know I’m a motivator for others.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Social-I LOVE DIFFERENT PEOPLE!!! I love the extroverts, I
love the introverts, I love the controllers, and I love the followers. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We make up a pretty interesting world.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And without a few of each one, chaos would break
OUT!!!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Can you imagine everyone in your
social group being introverted or controlling.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Man, I think we would either die of silence or fight for power.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The dynamics of friendship are amazing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And having a few good friends is much better
than having a lot of peeps.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Think of
friends like a relationship.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If you are
giving more and they don’t give anything, then it’s time to move on. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We’ve all had the good and the bad, all I’m
saying is with age, the less are more sturdy and you know you can depend on
them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I would just say….there is always
someone who needs you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Don’t be judgmental.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Never is anyone too good for someone
else.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There are times, that we just need
someone to listen to us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Keep that in
mind next time you are too busy to talk to someone you know or even your child.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">So since I am asking you to be vulnerable in a sense, I will
be vulnerable too.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Coco Channel wraps me
up in a nutshell, and any man you ask about me will say exactly what is below,
and in the end…I’m still learning to walk….<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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be very hard for a man to live with me, unless he’s terribly strong. And if
he’s stronger than I, I’m the one who can’t live with him.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m
neither smart nor stupid, but I don’t think I’m a run-of-the-mill person. I’ve
been in business without being a businesswoman; I’ve loved without being a
woman made only for love. The two men I’ve loved, I think, will remember me, on
earth or in heaven, because men always remember a woman who caused them concern
and uneasiness. I’ve done my best, in regard to people and to life, without
precepts, but with a taste for justice.” <br />
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-57245941578049144002013-03-11T20:07:00.001-07:002013-03-11T23:23:34.302-07:00SOMETIMES LOSING YOUR BALANCE FOR LOVE IS PART OF BALANCING YOUR LIFE<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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</span><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I haven’t blogged much lately, and can’t really explain why except
I think it is easier to feel emotions and talk yourself thru them when you are
really going thru some drama in your life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I have definitely experienced some drama this year and in saying that, I
think I have finally come to a point in my life that none of it makes sense,
nor am I enticed to entertain it anymore.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Particular addictions (who were mostly men) have now vanished, and the
only person that truly matters to me anymore is….well me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I love the feeling.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s numbing yet, at the same time I have
never felt so full in my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>While I can’t
say I am completely alone, as I have found someone I really do like to fill my
time while I am still in America, well the sensation really isn’t there. He is
handsome, successful, amazing body, funny, sweet, well shit everything I have
been looking for in someone, but for some reason I am okay that I know it is
not the right time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t crave him, I
don’t text him, I simply wait for him to chase me. It really is a bit easier.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And well if we don’t talk, well I guess were
not going to talk until he approaches me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I just don’t have time for it anymore.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>When I am with him, I leave him with good spirits, enticing conversation,
and memories he can crave for more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That
is good enough for me at this point.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>While
cruising on Facebook today, an old flame of mine posted something that made me
think.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He said that SOMETIMES LOSING YOUR BALANCE FOR LOVE IS PART OF BALANCING YOUR LIFE…Wow…You all don’t understand
how that hit me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You see this recently
happened to me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I completely threw my
life upside down for love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I ultimately
risked my career.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Everything I had built
over 15 years.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My reputation, my
potential, my heart. And when some of my best friends asked me WHY WHY WHY
would you do this, I couldn’t answer.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Its that spark you know.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The ping
in your stomach when that certain person touches you. The electrical sensation
you feel when you kiss. Or the connection you felt when you made love. It’s
something…well its something that is irreplaceable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You see I knew I really loved this man,
because in the end, there is no way I can be friends with him.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t want to talk to him; I don’t want to
think of him, I just need to move on in my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I know that there is really no deal
breaking or straw that broke the camel’s back that put me at this point, it’s
just I really did love him with all my heart. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So did I lose my balance for love?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yes I really did.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s been a long and hard journey, but
ultimately, all of the lessons I have gained from it has made me who and placed
me where I am today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> I am an incredible woman, found my motivation to finish my Master's degree. Potentially may get selected for a position I would love to have in Germany, and lastly, well I finally realize the only opinion that truly matters is my own. </span>He was a friend to
me, a close friend, and him as many others pointed out that I love to fast and
hard.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I see that now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I also see it is not a bad thing, but it’s
about finding the balance of loving yourself first and it being enough.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Once you find that balance you
then can truly love someone else.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This
is when your life begins. This is what life is about. I always say...Live your life, dont let it live you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span><br />
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-13287854694482152122013-01-21T23:15:00.001-08:002013-01-23T22:00:30.204-08:00All is Fair in Love and Addiction? What say You...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">It has been said men are from Mars and women are from Venus…If
this is the case, how the heck we all ended up on earth with no manual on how
to properly interact with each other is beyond me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Instead, we go thru lesson after lesson
trying to grasp what is right and what is wrong in our current situation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: large;">Unfortunately, the way we learn love is the
love we will exuberate later in our own lives.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It is the environment we grew up in, and ultimately, what we know to be
true in our hearts.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I use the word
addictive, the spectrum is so much grander; it’s almost simplistic to just
focus on this one feature.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>An individual
can be addicted to many things and may have been exposed to more than the
basics a person from a so called normal upbringing would list.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For example, the first thing we think of in
regards to addiction is alcohol or drugs. But many individuals are addicted too
so much more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This could be love; fear
of loneliness, sex, emotional abuse, etc…The list goes on and on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The thing a child who is exposed to these
terms must realize is no matter your upbringing, you must take charge of your
own life and decide how you will raise your family.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Will you repeat your pattern? Ultimately, in
reality it is all up to you.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">I have noticed my own form of addictive relationships I have
gotten myself into.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>First and foremost,
I often see the potential in what I think someone could be.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I often fall in love with that potential and don’t
take what I am seeing directly in front of me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It’s almost as if I have on horse blinders over my eyes, and I look
forward in their future.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This allows me
to forgive the present state and stay in love with the potential of the
person.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Often, when it doesn’t work out
I would ask myself, what did I do wrong, why wasn’t it me? Well the other day I realized it really never had anything to do with me
in the first place.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In actuality we were
the most realistic part of this persons’ life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This is why this person, couldn’t give you everything, but refused to
let you go....Until they sank deeper in their
make believe world, or you decided not to be their scapegoat any longer, are
either one of you able to move on in your lives.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: large;">Human beings are guarded individuals and we normally only
share our innermost thoughts with a few people in our lives.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Overtime we are able to share our secrets,
addictions, and our true self because we know the other person with whom we
share it with will accept it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> The person who is addicted turns to you because y</span>ou let
them be themselves, don’t judge and continue to love them unconditionally.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Unfortunately, in reality, you have allowed
yourself to love this person the only way you know how to love, because you have
accepted them for who they truly are, and its possible you are addicted to thier behavior. The difference for you and them is the
reason they are addicted in the first place is because they can’t handle their
reality at this present moment in time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This is why they haven’t given themselves to you fully.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Thus, they create a fake world per say in
which they can spiral downwards into their addiction and not face what truly is
eating them alive every single day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In
this fake world, they keep these secrets to themselves, and the individuals
they do allow in it do not know their trials and tribulations.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>However, living unrealistic, well…is
unrealistic, and that is why they haven’t completely let you go. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is why you, the closest reality they
know.....You will come and go, you will be the person who is merely being used for their gratification at times when
they need it. Since reality is something they subdue, you need to evaluate the situation and evaluate your worth in this relationship.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">Once upon a time, I had a man who I called my best
friend.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He was an alcoholic. In the end
he is neither my best friend, nor my friend anymore.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not suggesting you cut every single
person out of your life that doesn’t give you what you want or desire.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But love is love, and if you feel more distress
in a relationship then feeling blessed, then this person is not right for
you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You are not the magic drug. In the
end of you analyzing their addiction, maybe its time we turn the focus back on
ourselves.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe they have a problem, but
if you were weak enough to deal with it, then maybe you are addicted to their behavior
or style of love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> It has made me evaluate what I may be addicted to in terms of behavior or even love. </span>Sometimes jumping from
one addiction to another is just a form for us not to feel our real
feelings.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s time to move on my
loves.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s just a chapter in the past,
do not close the book, just turn the page and re-write your own ending. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-84624660519729132522013-01-06T19:17:00.000-08:002013-01-06T21:06:38.975-08:00Chickens Lay…People Lie…Don't be a bathroom break.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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facing it with your own eyes. To feel the disrespect while you are with someone
you love is harder to handle then finding out thru a second source with your
own eyes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At a time in my life that I
hold the term of Love at a high value, and I still have allowed myself to fall
for one or two people…well I wont lie, I have fallen in love with two people
in the past two years.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I would say that’s
not too shabby.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can’t explain why or
how it happened, yet it did. I don’t know why I did. From the beginning I knew
in the end I might hurt, yet I still chose to follow my heart.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is something I have always struggled
with. Loving someone so much it ends up hurting me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The weird thing is I always leave an
impression.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Too many times becoming the
unknown to someone else. Some will see your kindness as a weakness and use it against you and well sometimes there are people who genuinely laid out a road map for you to follow, and you chose not to stay on course. I don't believe there is a mapquest set up for falling in love. We take this road unknown because ultimately you love the travels.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">At some point though, you might hit a dead end. This can be shocking to the person, or maybe you saw it coming. Either way I believe that you must remember the joy of the memories shared and simply flip a u-turn. Experience is what will make you a focused and more self aware person. These circumstances will give you the strength you will need the next time you hit a road block. I was told recently that (A) I put up with too much and (B) Am the most unexplainable woman...These two comments caught me off guard a bit. I tried to take this conversation with a grain assault because I know that individuals can handle pain in 2 ways...talk about it and move on, or be the mean one because shifting blame or leaving something negatively is much easier for the person to move on in their life. I am the first one for sure. I simply do not enjoy drama, and would like to simply discuss the matter and move on in my life. When this happens to you, just try to be the first one. No one wants to remember you as an "Asshole". Now...I am not perfect, very very very far from it. I recently did a very mean thing to someone I love. Was it this persons' fault, yes. Did they deserve it? Yes..However, I would much rather have been the one who didn't have to be the Asshole. It doesn't feel good and you end up hurting more than one person. And I tell you it gets worse, but that is not a story for this blog, however, I am glad I stood up for myself. Just dont like the pain it caused. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">However, being the Asshole sometimes is required for someone to fully grasp hold of their self respect and what they would settle for. I on one hand try to be honest and respectful, but once upon a time I was put into a situation of distrust and that sent me into a frenzy. I went thru someones phone...oooooh bad idea. Why is it we just don't follow our gut? <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When you feel something is occurring, more
than likely it is.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Cell phones have
become a cancer to relationships in today’s world.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They create an atmosphere of curiosity and
distrust.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We have created an environment
of instant gratification.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No longer are
the days of love letters, or earning someone’s love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Oh no…it’s much easier now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At this point in our life, we can simply send
a simple excuse during a bathroom break and pictures throughout the day to
portray this person on another line is the only thought of our day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Unfortunately for them, they don’t see the picture
of this person holding another person’s hand throughout the day, or whispering
I love you in their ear.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why have we
become this way?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Too feel we can balance
so many lives of happiness, which all surround our own ways of living.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It really is such a selfish way to look at
things. Over the past year, I have seen this way too many times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Individuals diving into your persona and expressing
that they love you or someone else, while all at the same time, they have someone
else’s happiness who is balancing in the distance. It is really a depressing circumstance.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And I would be lying if I said I have not
done it myself in the past. However, at this point, I have realized loved and
relationships are harder to plan than a well thought out circus show.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Well on my quest of passing Go and collecting $200 for my future game of monopoly life, I think that we as People really have to stop looking for the negative to push us out of a situation. We were given the gift of feeling what is going on. Things in life do not have to end negative all the time, and we should be grateful for what we have endured. I shared this on my facebook today and I hope what you read next will leave lasting affects on your choices of life. Be grateful, for I am. I love and have felt love during my life. Those memories will never fade.</span><br />
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-71763012681935931112012-12-24T12:15:00.000-08:002012-12-24T12:15:11.677-08:00Fairytales boil down to timing and love<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: large;">Last night I attended a wedding of a friend’s friend. I had
no intention going to a wedding, and diffidently was not dressed for this type
of event. Wearing yoga pants, chucks, and a trademark scarf I decided what the
hell, it might be fun.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I walked in,
the DJ was playing Disney instrumentals, and my friend explained that groom had
proposed at Disneyland when the fireworks exploded.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Having been to Disneyland I imagined what a
memorable night that must have been for these two.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The groom was an average looking man, and the
bride was a petite beautiful woman.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She
recently had tried out to be a raiderette for the Oakland raiders sometime last
year.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In less than 10 months, her world
had turned around.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was told that
sometime this last year, the bride and a lot of her friends had gone out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She had a crush on a co-worker and he would
not pay her any attention.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But shortly
after she had met her soon to be husband.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The couple hit it off, and now tonight they were sealing their fate with
her finalizing her vows stating you are my lover, my best friend, my soul mate.
</span><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: large;">Seeing how pretty she was I thought,
what the hell was wrong with the guy who blew her off?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I just was amazed. Having been married
myself, nothing scares me more than the idea of getting married again, and when
asked by people if I would get married again, I often say no, but sitting in
this wedding made me yearn for that feeling again with someone.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: large;">As I watched this woman who looked so beautiful walk down
the aisle to her enamored husband, I thought to myself, wow this was a quick
relationship.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In my past, I have talked
to people for more than a year and nothing arose out of it, and here they are
getting married and getting ready to spend the rest of their lives together
after a short <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>10 months.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And let’s say the person you love isn’t close
to you. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Well I have met couples who have
had long distant relationships going strong after 4 years. What this unfolded
to me is that it’s not the circumstance you are in, it simply is the
person.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have always heard one person
will always love the other more than one.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>But I think when you meet that special person; there is nothing that
slows down the process of love. Why would you settle for a love you have to
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">One thing I have worked on in the past 2 years of singleism
is being patient.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I no longer fret if I don’t
hear from someone, as I know if it was truly the time, I would not be waiting,
they would be pursuing me. In this holiday season, I think it is important to
really look at what matters to you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>There are a lot of us singles out there and really because you haven’t met
the one doesn’t mean they are not out there, you simply aren’t ready to pursue
something that you really are not ready for. We all want to be loved, feel loved,
and have that physical connection with someone; it’s what drives us out of the
arms of someone we truly want to be with and into the arms of someone else at
times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If we are not finding what we are
looking for in one person, we look elsewhere. This could be because of
personality differences, different places in life or simply distance. The
important thing to remember is you are not alone. Many of us are still looking
for that special person to share our lives with.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All the in-between is just life’s
lessons.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">I am thankful for my lessons I have had thus far. I am a
better person for them personally and professionally. And after seeing such a
beautiful event full of love I can’t wait to share that with someone one day.
Until then, I am going to be thankful for all I have right now. My life, my
children, and my career. Those are not going anywhere, and they are what I make
of it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will continue to keep my
standards high and leave those behind that leave no benefit to my life. Merry
Christmas and a Happy New Year to you’s and yours..<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-28865757511798994532012-12-22T01:18:00.003-08:002012-12-22T01:18:48.278-08:00LOVE YOURSELF ENOUGH...stop the dryer! <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-cntOg1u8O3g/UNV55fPBbeI/AAAAAAAAAFM/k3I9c1FwpAs/s1600/bloggggg.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-cntOg1u8O3g/UNV55fPBbeI/AAAAAAAAAFM/k3I9c1FwpAs/s1600/bloggggg.jpg" /></a><span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">My dryer is tumbling and tumbling.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Strength I find, stand tall, and start to
move forward comes and goes many times in my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t know why I go back or why I feel the
need to feel the pain, but something I have learned is it is something that I dealt
with when I was very young. It was an unemotional love I grew up with and I
never felt secure in my environment. Often I was left to care for myself or my
siblings, making me the instant caretaker and has led to my nurturing nature.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Now I know there is nothing wrong with being
a nurturer, I think it is important to step back and not exhaust your traits on
love on someone who does not want it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>What I mean by does not want it, is they choose to use it to their advantage.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sometimes by being strong and helpful to
others we protect ourselves from the panic that comes at another person’s
mercy. We then tend to be with people whom we can help in order to feel safe
and in control. Tonight while listening to some music, tears came to my eyes,
this has happened in the last two weeks a few times.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s that feeling of having no control over a
situation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I quickly swallowed my pain
and decided it was not time for this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
went on about my night, and while driving alone, I was left thinking why is it
I am feeling this same pain again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If
you felt it once, why would you do it again?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It hurts the same every time Turaeza. And then it dawned on me, well
Turaeza because you allow it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You allow
yourself to repeat this cycle. I am ultimately making that choice.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In the end, no one is doing anything to me
that I do not allow.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">Why do we go thru these ordeals? Well I think it is human
nature to believe someone will change.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>They will ultimately be or form into who you want them to be.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For example, while in a nonchalant
relationship, I use this term loosely, as there is a great love there in my
heart, I tell myself, it is okay for them to do what they want.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why would I want to control what they are doing?
The Old Catholic saying, whatever happens happens as long as I don’t know.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s so not ideal…I absolutely know what is
going on. I am personally choosing to allow someone to not show me the respect
I deserve or need in someone who truly loves me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I guess when you grow up without a loving environment it is where you
feel comfortable. It is all I know; therefore tending to settle for it. But the
steps I have made, and if you are in this situation you will make yourself is
that you are aware of this, and with time, will eventually demand the respect
or move on in your life. You see I and we deserve something more than the worst
thing we can stand.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>While sitting in my
car, I began to tear myself apart, what is it I don’t have, is it because I
have children, am I not pretty enough, young enough, used and abused…then I
quickly realized what the F%$# am I doing. I am all of those things and more.
My children are my life, so anyone who can’t handle that can simply step on, I
am damn well beautiful enough, that is obvious by attention, I am still young
by age in numbers and especially in looks. And there is nothing used or abused
about a woman who almost has her Master’s degree, made E8 in 14 years, and is a
great leader and friend to many people. The traits GOD gave me not everyone
will have. I am so thankful, and I will never doubt those traits, especially
for a man.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">A great excerpt from a book I am reading goes along and
says, There is an old joke about a nearsighted man who lost his keys late at
night and is looking for them by the light of a street lamp.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Another person comes along and offers to help
him but asks, “Are you sure this where you lost them?” “No, answers the man,
but this is where the light is”.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When we
are searching for what we are missing in life, not where there was some hope of
finding it, but where, because sometimes it is much easier not to look. Even my
subconscious sees my constant recycling of pain. I had a dream the other night,
and while falling in my dream, I felt like I couldn’t control my fall. I just
kept tumbling and tumbling on the ground. Falling deeper and deeper into a flat
floor.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The floor is my foundation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The foundation is there, but the fact that I
was falling tells me it is my choice I am making and not anything I am doing
wrong.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I see the choice, I know the
pain, yet I still continue to allow myself to feel it.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">Well honestly, I am not enjoying it anymore.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have moved on from a lot of pain in my life
recently that affected my livelihood, friends, and life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am stronger, smarter, and ready for
battle.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I feel this way with my heart as
well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am ready for war. I no longer
will surrender.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will no longer love
too much. I will find my happiness within myself, and if someone comes along
that enhances myself, well, you know what…He will earn a place in my amazing
life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He will in no way be the deciding
factor if I am happy or not. Because inside I am already happy. I see it so
clearly, it feels amazing not to feel alone with or without someone. Honestly I
think it is more lonely when you are with someone and they make you feel alone.
<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>These people have no place in your life.
You have to take the life lessons they showed you and simply keep pushing
forward.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They say if you let it fly
away, and it comes back it was meant to be, well I think that is horseshit. A
true man or woman that doesn’t recognize what is in front of them simply doesn’t
deserve you. That is case and point. And I simply don’t believe anything less
than that.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-11232232062583919472012-11-27T12:10:00.000-08:002012-11-27T12:10:42.819-08:00If the Ship is Sinking, Look for Your Anchor...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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</span><span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">Bottom Lines and Deal Breakers<o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">Have you ever considered what it would take for you to
realize what is in front of you and how much you are willing to give to a
particular person or subject before you slam your fist on the counter and
scream, “This is a deal breaker”.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This
can go for a lot of things, our careers, friends, and relationships.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I think each of us has deal breakers categorical
in each of these arenas and apply them differently to different situations and
or involvement.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Many times we shy away
from a deal breaker or bottom line because we: 1) Don’t want to hurt the others
person’s feelings. 2) Are fearful of the recourse and therefore live a lie. And
3) Simply are so afraid to try something new or start over it’s easier to deal
with the present then actually Be Present and live life happily.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I think many could say ultimately we make
excuses because we are scared of those 3 reasons.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We simply don’t have it in us to step into
the unknown or ultimately are so comfortable with the current state we don’t
want to face an obstacle alone.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">Personally, I know I have different Deal Breakers and Bottom
Lines between my personal and professional life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is much easier for me to see a subject as
black or white in my professional issues then in my personal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am unsure why as both subjects get my heart
thru passion.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I excel in both areas and
want to succeed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If that means I take
care of one of my Airmen, or if I take care of someone I care about, their
needs and wants and fulfilling those are my goals.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There are rules I live by every day in the Air
Force that I know I won’t cross and I wouldn’t allow my Airmen to cross as
well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This ensures our mission is
complete and we reach the end state we are seeking.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>However, in my personal life, I tend to
stretch those limits far.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have deal
breakers and bottom lines and see them oh so clearly when giving advice to
friends and such, but when it happens to me, I accept the outcome and many
times forgive the situation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At some
point though, you have to wake up and see that forgiveness is not key.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When your Airmen arrive late to work the
first time, you discuss the issue.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If it
happens a few more times, then there is an evident problem that needs to be
identified and rectified immediately to correct this behavior.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This could be counseling or in extreme cases
documenting the account.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Now, let’s
apply this to a friend and or relationship.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>There are other factors involved.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>We don’t per say have a manual to follow when it comes to general
respect. Therefore, I think we evaluate each occurrence as an individual case
and choose to talk thru it maturely or ultimately move on.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is so true that each person comes into our
life for a reason, season, or lifetime.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>We make that choice.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When you choose
that, you have to evaluate your lifetime and decide when that benefit has run
out.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">The underlying issue here for me at least is fear of being
alone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know I can be alone. I just so
enjoy having that connection with one person.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Knowing I am the reason I put a smile on their face.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And when at the expiration of the
relationship, I feel that I have failed in some way or another. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t like to fail! Now professionally, I do
the same thing, I have passion and pride in the Air Force because I know I am
doing that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am taking care of my
Airmen and that I am making someone happy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It’s almost a child-mother relationship.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>They can upset you, but you have no choice.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You don’t get to write them off.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You know that mind games are not appropriate
and they have to abide by your rules.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>However, as individuals, we don’t come with rules.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Who says, in order to be my friend or lover,
you have to do this, this, and this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If
you don’t I’m going to write you up, and then you are still forced to be around
me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That sounds more like a
marriage.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is a good thing to
this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This means we get to pick who
benefits us and why.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We don’t have to
deal with it if we do not want to.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But
when we choose not to deal with it, we know, game over, press this button if
you want to play again and many of us, including myself are tired of it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I think the end goal we are all seeking is
really just to be happy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Find friends
and loved ones who motivate, listen, and support you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">Advice I would like to share that I have gotten from a few
people I love or have loved, especially when it comes to me and my style
is.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not everyone deserves your
love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Another was there are people out
there that actually look for someone who is a giver and feeds on it, until it
becomes too much of a game and finds a new person to suck from.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Additionally, go into a situation knowing
that one person will always give more than another, or in some cases one person
may love harder than the other.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So, if I
won’t tolerate a mediocre performance from my Airmen, why would I accept one
from someone I share my deepest thoughts and desires to?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If that is not a deal breaker I don’t know
what is.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">You have to choose people who inspire you to be the best you
can be and never judge you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have never
felt so judged then I have in the past 4 years by people I respect and or
love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe that comes with age, and
maybe that comes with personality changes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>We aren’t in our 20’s anymore and we know we make the decision of who we
want to be with.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We don’t have time for
games because, really, it’s just not worth our time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We would rather surround ourselves with
people who genuinely care about us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Non-judgment
I believe comes with age. It’s about accepting someone for who they are.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And really…if someone judges you, and pulls
away, then they weren’t really there for you in the first place.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We are all entitled to our opinions,
depending on your closeness voice our concerns, and ultimately decide if we can
support this relationship any longer, but in the same token, if you don’t still
feel love throughout another person’s transgressions then you need to admit
your season is over.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">I charge you and myself to find these bottom lines are or
deal breakers.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You deserve to receive what
you put into something.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If you excel in
your duties, study and test well, you will get promoted.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why would you do those things if you knew
there was no chance at advancement?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Apply this theory to your personal life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>If you put in, give love, and support relationships and you know there
is no chance for advancement, why would you keep doing it. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A mentor of mine shared a note with me the
other day when I was thinking about the issue of forgiveness.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She said…”When you have asked for
forgiveness, don’t lament over it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Whether they give it or not, it is their bag to carry.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You were genuine in making right the wrong,
it is not up to them to receive it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You
must not hold onto hurt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>People and
relationships come into your lives for a reason, season, or a time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Unfortunately, they choose.”<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">I hope you were able to learn something. Live your life and
be present. There is great love for you here.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-55518581386047365272012-11-06T22:14:00.000-08:002012-11-06T22:14:19.424-08:00When you cant talk, Write it out....<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">First let me apologize for not finishing up my fitness series,
but life got in the way. I promise I will complete the series…</span></div>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Okay now that I got that
out, I want to talk about feeling a loss before it occurs.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sometimes, we create this ideal with a person
or a form of life. It’s what we know, what we have created, and what we expect
from a certain person.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know the person
I am, I will turn 360 degrees to ensure that the person I care about never
doubts it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You can call it weak, but I
call it love. It’s the affirmation that you will be there when you need them.
The test of time is realizing and understanding that they may not be there when
you need them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This can be intentional or
unintentional.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The problem is, the more
unstable or let’s say Non-foundation a relationship is, the more you will
interpret small things and make them into a bigger problem.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At this point I would say communication is
key.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know this…You know this…But when
that person asks you what is wrong, you don’t want to seem dramatic and often
choose to say nothing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why is it so damn
hard to just say, why are you acting differently?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I think it boils down to your own judgment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What I mean by this is are they really acting
differently or are you more insecure thereby reading into the small details you
never noticed before.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I tend to read and overthink.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I would say I am a calm woman, have learned
never to jump to conclusions, and go with the flow.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But at what point when your <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I love you’s are coming more from you and not
from them, do you start to read the signs.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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I think a very bad part of human nature is our conscience.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No one ever intends in hurting someone else
nor would we want to.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It is just
life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Different ordeals require
different support systems and maybe at some point your time as a support system
runs out. I think when you notice this trend you have to see it for what it
is.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I strongly believe that if someone
wants to be a part of your life, they will damn well ensure you are in it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They will do everything in their power to
ensure you are getting what you need to feel wanted.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’ve never asked for much is a relationship
and I think this is a bad thing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I think
you should ask for the world. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why allow
an in limbo relationship? Do you hope the best for something that may never
come out, or is it the whole ideal that you could possibly be that small margin
that is lucky and pulls threw.</div>
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The positive to pull away from this is never change who you
are or your expectations.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is no
need to create a dramatic playing field as well.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Simply pull back.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If the other person uses this to their
advantage and does not respond, well you know the intentions and the loss will
not be as hard to bear.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sometimes with
practice we learn how something will feel, and what it takes to put that
feeling away.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Maybe that is what you
needed all along to see what was in front of you. Your road is determined and
people are placed as road blocks to show you how to find home.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Trust<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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misslopez34http://www.blogger.com/profile/17887091596688955306noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1117278849391615574.post-72569680257860571052012-10-19T09:26:00.001-07:002012-10-19T09:27:17.399-07:00I…. Workout…. (1 OF 6 WEIGHT LOSS BLOGS)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;"><strong>STEP 1: Getting down to the issues</strong> <o:p></o:p></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">All right Loves…I have gotten some emails lately on what
you can do to keep that weight down or to simply shed some extra loving
off.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Many of you
that know me now don’t know that I actually have struggled with weight issues
my whole life and when I first joined the military I was on the weight
management program.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Many reasons for
this were my basic composite body type.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It is what worked for my ancestors and passed on down the
generations.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It couldn’t have possibly
had anything to do with the 64oz Big Gulp of Dr. Pepper I used to drink in high
school. The funny thing is I never thought of myself as overweight, I wouldn’t even
use the word fat.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I would say I was a
bit thick. LOL…Anyways…I tried everything when I joined the Air Force. Starved
myself, Diet Pills, Working Out, etc…If we fast forward 15 years now, I can now
share 15 years of professional fitness and personal advice to help you get
where you need to be.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And guess what! I’m
going to give this to you for free.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>No
personal trainer required. You are going to need a pair of running shoes, a
good sports bra, and an open mind.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So let’s
begin….<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">First Step: Self-Evaluation: Why do you want to lose weight?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Now if it is a health answer then I am good
with that, because I know you really want to do it for a reason.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We are human, and many of us need a reason to
do something.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But if you are trying to
get ready for a reunion, or possibly a cruise, I need you to realize, that once
you lose a certain amount of weight, unless you make it a lifestyle, you will
gain it all back plus 2/3’s more.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can
almost guarantee it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So think of your
weight history and remember a time of where you still ate healthy, were
partially physically active, but if you wanted a cheeseburger, you ate it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This is your normal weight.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am 5’2…and I would say my comfortable
weight without really trying to maintain a healthy life would be about 140
pounds.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am comfortable there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At this time I am 125 pounds.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Did you just see that 15 pounds difference
from a comfortable weight to a desired weight?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>So in saying this set a realistic goal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>My goal could be 115 pounds, and I might be able to get there. But could
I honestly eat only white fish and egg whites for the rest of my life? </span><span style="font-family: Calibri;">NO…So there is no
reason I ever need to be that small.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"></span><span style="font-size: large;">Once you have set your desired and realistic weights, I want you to set
your goal 5 pounds below your actual weight now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You have to reach your realistic before you
can reach your desired weight. Plus, if you’re overall goal is to lose 30 total
pounds.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That’s a big goal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The average person loses between one to three
pounds a week.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So that would take about
three to eight months depending on how much weight you lose. Thus, a 5 pound
goal is very realistic.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Once you set
that goal, pick a small reward for yourself and follow thru and buy it for
yourself when you reach it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This could
be a new shirt, a purse, a pair of earrings, a book, anything, and if you are
short on money, then maybe a set appointment for a bubble bath, or a desired
meal when you reach it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Here is the
catch….You have to maintain the 5 pound weight loss for 48 hours before you can
redeem the reward. The reason for this is I want you to put a positive
connotation to losing weight but you need to realize what it took to get you
there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I would hate for you to work so hard
to lose 5 pounds and not feel the motivation to keep going.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So are you following? 5 pounds at a time….And
I don’t care how long it takes for you to lose the 5 pounds, 1 week, 1 month,
all I ask is that you keep focused on your goal. You are done when you decide
you are happy where you are at.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: large;">This is the bottom-line...It’s all about a lifestyle change.
You need to dedicate yourself to a positive lifestyle change.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You know I write a lot about self-worth…loving
your body, loving yourself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Well it’s
time to love you first.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I need you to
charge that this is not a diet.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You are doing
this to make you happy! Think positively...CHOOSING TO BE POSITIVE AND HAVING A GRATEFUL ATTITUDE IS GOING TO DETERMINE HOW YOU ARE GOING TO LIVE YOUR LIFE.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">So over the next 6 weeks, I have charged and dedicate myself
to sharing my professional advice to help you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I am doing this because I love you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Many of my friends know although I am a personal trainer, I really never
enjoyed training people, however, I do love taking care of my friends, and that
is what I plan on doing!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><strong><span style="font-size: large;">HOMEWORK WEEK 1<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">I will discuss eating tips and meal plans in our next <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>weekly blog… So until then…I need you to read
this blog, read this blog, and read this blog.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Do some self-evaluating…<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">How is your self-identity? What is your 3 favorite
attributes (Physical)<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">What is your overall goal?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">Why do you think you turn to food? Do you do this when you
are happy? When you are sad? Content? <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">What are your favorite three meals?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">Google Clean Eating and read about it<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><strong><span style="font-size: large;">RULES!!!! Starting today…..<o:p></o:p></span></strong></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">No Soda<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">Limited Diet Drinks, Juice, Alcohol<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">Drink lots and lots of water…Lets purify that body (Plus
your skin is going to look great)<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">Daily Multi Vitamin <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">No Added Salt on foods<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">No Fried Foods<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">If you plan on participating in this 6 week plan…please
message me or simply respond to this post so I can reach out to you.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: large;">See you next week in my YOU ARE WHAT YOU EAT BLOG…..<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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